~~~>>>>Eden restored<<<<~~~

Monday, July 4, 2011

The Beauty in a Tan

Like any good writer ( can't believe I'm placing myself in this category, but Jesus gives me worth :p), inspiration occurs when we least expect it. That epiphany moment when the jar of Mabel's jam fell from your hand got you thinking about the process of a broken soul. I remember my wonderful pastor David Charles telling me about his washing whites incident when the one shirt fell and had to be thoroughly cleaned again. This is a preview of God's care for us. That just for that one that's dirty He would have the entire cleaning process be done again. (Bless God right!)

Anyways my epiphany occurred about 2 minutes ago when I stared at this screen, wanted to write and didn't know what. At this point my hand absentmindedly passed on my shoulder where I felt the peeling off of my 2 week old tan that I proudly received from zip-lining.

Now a little knowledge for you..."I Katrina McIntosh hate heights!" I'm usually able to front it till I make it and ignore whatever my fear is, but my heights is different. My brother from another KW would tell you of his LOL experience of lifting me over his shoulder. Perhaps it was my screams or the impression my nails left in his skin, but needless to say he never tried it again. But as life would have it experiences have changed me quite drastically.

Two deaths, financial crisis, financial blessing, a much deeper walk with Christ, several moves...and more to come. Tons of tanning has taken place!! My head spins from just the thought!! These experiences though have left be in a much better state of life. A place where I am better able to do what past me would consider drastic things, but present me simply see it as a season change. A cut of hair, a switch to blond, a semester break. These are things that I would never have been able to do a year ago. But bless God for the proverbial tanning, I'm able to relax abit more.

Why is this important? Let me explain it in one important experience so you'll have a idea. When I had to take a year off before I did my degree I was so upset, to the point of depression. Depression led to stupid decisions and even being a much unhealthy relationship. That is how important knowledge was to me. Now it is still important but not idolic as it was before thus I took a semester off without the drama and tears from the past. Now I know that my life is captured in God's hands. The steps of a righteous man (woman) are ordered by the Lord. As long as my heart is centered in Christ then my steps are ordered. My pastor Mark David would say righteousness is right conduct. So right conduct will lead to ordered steps. Thus whatever happens in my life I know that once I am living a right life before God the situation is meant for.

See how much the tanning has taught me!! So at the end of the day, guys embrace the tanning. Embrace the high free falling. You may be burnt at the end. Tired as heck! But guess what, you're gonna have a glow to you like you won't believe.
Don't be foolish and state "Do not stare at me because I am dark,because I am darkened by the sun."
The tan peels, but the wealth of knowledge stands!!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

ok so this is my first time blogging..yes its official i've entered the blog world with its own syntax to decode....i guess ill be writing whats on my mind...if ppl actually read i guesss i'll continue lol
so im thinking for this 1st time blog (lol) ill share something i wrote...be blessed

Your Prisoner

As I pen honesty of heart flows out of me

Not thought out lines that pleases the crowd

For this is a letter to my beloved

I miss you

I miss being in your arms

Feeling you near

I’ll be honest it’s hard sometimes

To walk in your Word

That by faith I should live

But I will

I must

Trust

Because after sleeping on rocks

How can I let go?

And truth be told it all doesn’t make sense

So what if I have the silver and gold

My rib fulfilled

Its prehistoric hunger, returned

If I’m not serving my Maker

What does it profit me?

I lose my soul

Omega and Alpha

To have things and not you

I sleep

But to possess and not you

When you’re the source

How can I not give you your due?

Selah

So I’ve found myself in a pit

And I do not understand why

They cry out curse God and die

Quietly I speak “Forgive them”

For God they have not yet understood

What it is to be with you

Who you are

Love

Strength

Mercy

Grace

The same which keeps them still

The same which keeps me

Thinking back on all I’ve done

Yet I’ll never have to bear that shame

You were the one they beat

Flesh exposed for all to see

Hung on a cross to die

Brutalized and left

Love kept

So miniscule cross,

How can I not carry?

And repeatedly sometimes I don’t feel

But I trust

I see

Evidence of your love surrounds

All creation bows

We were all meant to

So how can I not

Made in your image

Dare I consider myself too much?

To give you praise

When even rocks obey

Beloved my heart is breaking

For I don’t feel you near

And ripples emerge

Touching my core

Nevertheless

Not my will

But yours

You are God

Signed

Your prisoner


like it??dont???let me know..and why.....

GOD is LOVE and LOVE is GOD :)